Alone Thoughts

It's taken me a long time to get the courage to share my artistic side on my blog. I'm very critical of it, but nonetheless, here is another one of my writings:

Alone Thoughts

He sits alone. No faces or voices but the ones in his head.

His thoughts keep playing over and over like a record needle that won't move.

His head wants to explode but there is no pain. The pain comes from his heart. The voices won't stop.

He feels trapped.

Trapped in his own head.

In one room.

A room like a box.

They say he's lonely, but he know he isn't. It's not his thoughts afterall, it's the people he knows. They hurt him.

They box him in that little room.

And he sits there thinking alone with his thoughts and voices, bearing the weight of the world.

They won't stop no matter what.

It's constant like static on the tv.

No ending, no beginning. Constant.

And he sits and stares in the dark with his thoughts locked in and secret.

Never to be shared, never to stop...

~tsm

Blessed Be,

Tamara

Sheer Joy

I had an absolutely wonderful day yesterday. :)

I discovered an awesome indoor farmers market with a huge nursery! I've been on the hunt for the not so common herbs ever since I moved to Pensacola, and this nursery had them all. I spent 3 hours there roaming through the plants and trying not to buy everything in site.

I wanted to just lay down in the middle of it all and cry out of sheer joy! lol

Their plants were so green and lush and the produce selection was amazing. As I was wandering around, I talked to so many people. I love people that garden...always friendly and willing to gab about plants and recipes. :)

After much debate and picking up and putting back lol I came home with:

Lemon Verbana

Orange Mint

Chocolate Mint

Pineapple Sage

Cubanelle Peppers

Can't keep my hands off the Lemon Verbana or the Chocolate Mint. And the Cubanelles are my favorite sweet pepper but so expensive in the store so I don't buy them too much....$2.99/pepper!

My porch is only 15 feet by 5 feet and I've managed to get alot out there. My husband said yesterday it's looking like a rainforest on the porch. lol



My porch still pales to my herb gardens in Minnesota, but it's the next best thing. It was a wonderful day and I even applied for a job to work there. Talk about my dream job! :)

Blessed Be,

Sage



The Way

The tears well up in tired eyes
So much turmoil, so many lies.

It still haunts...the anger, the emotion, the voices
Life's destiny, or unplanned choices.

The hurt is there, now buried very deep
Secret and painful for only her to keep.

Unfair confidence and a heartfelt low
The healing takes time, so very slow.

Her heart that has never been truly whole
Lonely and unfulfilled, despite her given role.

Swallowed down into an abyss, so dark and hollow
Unwilling hands let go, not wanting to follow.

She reaches up as the light is almost gone
Only one person there, bravely he holds on.

A way appears like magic, swiftly decided
Emotions, raw and tender, suddenly divided.

Hope and dreams begin to manifest
Before her eyes, a much needed rest.

The healing begins, slow and arborous
Someday soon, she will again love and trust.

~tsm

Sunday Survey~The Fae and Faerie Sugar

I love the whole idea of faeries.

They grace a garden with enchantment and wonder. Their whimsical personalities puts a smile on a frowny face.  Faeries seem delicate and feminine and girly.

Up north I built a faerie garden and a friend found a handmade faerie house at an arts and crafts fair, for me to put in it. I planted herbs and flowers and placed shiny crystals around.

I often left libations for them and burned incense.

Did/Do I believe I would actually see a tiny twinkling faerie flitting and fluttering around my garden?

NO I didn't/don't, but I love the imagination of it....the thought of it...the fun of it.

Try making some Faerie Sugar to "draw" them into your gardens:

Faerie Sugar

3 cups of sugar

1 tbs vanilla

1/8 tsp red food coloring

Lay the sugar on a piece of wax paper and sprinkle the vanilla over it. Stir in the sugar til its completely mixed. Next sprinkle the food coloring and mix well til its uniformly pink. You can also add glitter or small shiny objects.

Pour the mixture into a decorative bottle or jar and decorate it with paints and colorful ribbon. Place the jar in your garden and sprinkle some around occasionally.



My Survey Question:

What are your beliefs in faeries and do you have an area for them or a faerie garden?

Blessed Be,
Tamara

Milk and Honey Garden Spell

Go outside and choose a stick about 10 inches long. Soak it in water then remove the bark. After it's dry, decorate it as you wish and this will be your asperging wand.

In a bowl mix:
1/2 cup honey
1 qt of milk

Asperge the milk and honey mixture over plants/flowers/veges with your new wand.

Chant:

Perfect love I give to you,
sprout and thrive with life anew.

Milk and honey flow throughout,
fertilize each seed and sprout.

Maiden, Greenman dance and play,
twirl and laugh here every day.

Bring lush growth and green this spot,
prevent my garden from wilt and rot.

With colorful piece of ribbon, tie pots, fencing, posts and stakes and say "i bind this spell" otherwise you will have weeds growing plentiful too!

Enjoy!!
Blessed Be,
Tamara

A Fresh Outlook and A Snake!

In honor in Spring and new beginnings, I've decided to take a new direction with my blog...a fresh look AND a fresh outlook.

Most of us are busy planning and planting our gardens. I have my porch container garden planted and it's coming along very nice.

Ummmmm well...i went outside to take this picture:

I picked up a red pot to move it to the other side to take a picture of the left side of my porch. With the pot in my hand a snake crawled out of the pot and plopped by my feet!!! OMG i freaked and i freaked bad! I was screaming and fell over the dog, then screaming at my poor dog, Woogie to get in the house. I was shaking and crying and probably made a complete fool out of myself! I had the neighbers here and the community maintenance guys. They couldn't find it.

This is what the left side of my porch looks like now after tearing it apart looking to see where the snake went. Pot tipped over, dirt on the floor, chair coverings gone and in disarray:

My porch is on the second floor!!

The snake looked like this and this is a Florida Banded Watersnake, not poisonous but a mouthfull of teeth and a nasty bite.

So now I'm afraid to go out on my porch which is my sanctuary. :(

My intention today was to share my Milk and Honey Garden Spell with you. lol So I will do that tomorrow instead. lol

Blessed Be:
Tamara